The ADA Porta Potty and Other Signs I'm Building Something Real

I ordered an ADA compliant porta potty yesterday, and honestly? I feel like I'm winning at life.

Not because that's glamorous. Not because it's some huge business milestone everyone dreams about.

But because every single detail matters to me.

I work 5 to 9. I wake up before everyone else in the house--and that's with getting up at least twice a night with my 5 month old. At this point, I don't even know if I'm tired anymore. I think I'm just running on ambition and cold brew.

And somehow, I still wake up with new ideas every single day.

Because I believe in Spesh that much.

I filled out a casting application for a mompreneur TV show recently. For a second, I let myself imagine what it would feel like to be seen like that. Then the application asked if I could front $5,000 to participate.

Technically? Maybe I could've figured it out. Borrowed it. Scraped it together from family.

But that didn't feel right for this season of our life.

Because the truth is, behind the polished branding and the organized event packers and the welcoming social media graphics is... me.

And me looks like an old farmhouse full of unfinished renovation projects.

It looks like toys scattered across every room.

It looks like so many mice we finally had to get a cat--and thank goodness she's a hunter.

It looks like chicken poop all over the yard and dogs proudly bringing dead animals to the porch like tiny serial killers offering gifts.

This spring alone, we've had a baby donkey born, several baby goats, and a baby chick.

I'm raising 3 kids under 5.

My son got into income-based preschool.

And honestly, sometimes it feels embarrassing to admit that I work for WKU while still living in poverty.

My husband works around the clock to keep us afloat. I do too. We're exhausted in ways I can't fully explain, but we keep going because we believe this hard season is building something bigger than us.

Right now, it feels like we survive mostly on hope.

Hope for our future.

Hope for our kids.

Hope that one day all this work means something.

Both of us have big dreams. And I've always believed that when you put good things into the world-- when you build something with intention and heart-- it eventually comes back to you somehow.

But the things about Spesh is this:

It's never really been about money.

It's about impact.

It's about creating spaces where people with disabilities don't have to earn belonging.

It's about accommodations without shame.

It's about families feeling seen.

It's about finding people who believe what I believe:

Disabled individuals do not need to be fixed in order to belong.

And maybe that's why I'm so proud of that ADA compliant porta potty.

Because to some people, it's just a bathroom.

But to me, it's proof that I'm building this with intention.

One detail at a time.